Dear Lucie,

You know what I miss most of all about the old house?

Not the living room: the wood burner here works. The whole family uses it and the dining room because the bedrooms aren't big enough to do anything but sleep and get dressed

Not the bathroom: climbing in and out of that tub always made me feel I was taking my life in my hands, and trying to clean it! The shower's clean with a quick squeegee. All we've got room for is a shampoo bar in the shower and a bar of soap and toothbrush holder on the basin; as that's about all we can afford to keep in stock, it works out wonderfully.

Not the back garden: I wasn't well suited to desert gardening; every year the only things that survived were some of the herbs, and I could never get rid of all of the fruit. I wonder how the new family's doing?

I miss the kitchen: the Wedgewood, and the big fridge, and the sunroom just through the little door; the counter space, and the amount of space generally . . . yes, there's a window over the sink now -- I can watch the garden being drowned while I do the washing-up -- and it has all the tools I need, but it feels as cramped and tiny as the galley kitchen in our first place. Despite the best efforts of everyone in the family, there was still far too much stuff: most of the bakeware has been rehomed, the majority of it at the community center (which reminds me that I need to take the laundry over and drop it off).

That's part of the reason I sent you the cookie jar, silly woman: I don't bake much in the "goody" category here, as chocolate and sugar are so closely rationed, and I knew you'd be able to put cookies in it for the kids. If I want something sweet, I'll go to the bakery. Plus your kitchen is dedicated to '50s kitsch and a "Cookie Time" jar is a much better fit than a Snapware tub. :-)

Steak knives, there's something that never comes out of the drawer any more. With meat rationed, cooking tends towards the communal: pies and stews and curries rather than "big hunk o' cow".

(Perhaps I'm more spoiled than I thought? I wake up warm and dry and safe every morning, after all, and that's reason for gratitude.)
Professor Lucy Stewart
School of Health, Nursing and Midwifery
University of Paisley
Paisley, Scotland PA1 2BE

20 August 2019

Dear Eleanor,

Yes, of course I remember you. I have a video of you as a very small girl, quacking and flapping your arms in concert with my late husband. The card sits in a digital frame on my mantelpiece, and while I don't play it often, I always smile when I see it.

I deeply regret having lost touch with you, so many years ago. I ask you to forgive me: my dispute with your father was nothing to do with you; I felt that he remarried far too soon after your mother's death, and I am afraid my deep love for your mother cost me years of involvement in your life. We had our disagreements, sometimes quite acrimonious, but I am truly sorry to learn of his death.


(Author's note: it's Tomas's fault. He gave Mia one more, so I had to give Lucy one more. This one is rather darker than the rest of the entries, for which I apologize, but it seems far too likely . . . .

(Lucy would not discuss it with Eleanor (Lucie's "Ellie"), as at the time of this letter Eleanor would be at most 14 years old, but an equally compelling reason why Lucy turned to teaching was her vision: albinism is primarily characterized in all its genetic variations by low vision, requiring corrective and adaptive measures (light- and glare-filtering lenses -- likely polycarbonate, as they can be manufactured in a thin enough profile not to add headaches from the weight of one's eyewear to the problem -- large print text materials, books on tape) that would not be a priority in a world in the midst of an oil shock. As her vision worsened, Lucy would recognize the potential risk to her clients and wisely, if regretfully, remove herself from practice.)

(The Wikipedia entry on the 1918 Flu Epidemic makes fascinating, if unsettling, reading, the lessons regarding restriction of travel and interaction in public spaces holds relevance for modern public health planning in the event of an avian flu pandemic. For a comparable event to the uproar over buying one's way out of National Service that took down the fictional Labour government, readers are referred to the New York Draft Riots and reminded that the UK government has a prior history of ignoring professional advice at the cost of thousands of lives: a desperate government, without ready access to sources of replacement material, might well decide that a few more deaths due to reuse of limited bio-hazard gear constituted an acceptable level of loss.

(It's been quite the ride. Thanks for reading.)
'In the present circumstances many people are asking, ought we celebrate Christmas at all? There can be no doubt that this is the very year when we should think, not less, but more about Christmas - ' Picture Post Magazine, December, 1939

Dear Lucie,

You remember the running joke we had with David while he was at school -- "Mum, do you want my list?" "Don't need it; we're paying your tuition. Merry Christmas!" The odds were good that we were looking at a variation on that theme this year: "We're not sleeping in the street, wearing rags or dealing with a severe calorie deficit. Merry Christmas!"
We go on. We trust that the majority of our fellow humans want what we want: enough to eat, somewhere safe to sleep, a chance for their children to grow up happy, and a peaceful end. We trust that those people will act in defense of those things, even if it means sacrifice, or the "dirty" work of being politically aware and involved.

It may not sound like much -- but it's got us this far.

Good night, darling.

Love, always,

Lucy
Dear Lucie,

Yes, I called my parents on Thanksgiving Day: it could have been worse -- Blatant attempt at levity: thank you for the photos of Ellie feeding turkey to the dog; I can't believe she's going to be 3 next month! What are you doing for her birthday? Her Aunt Lucy has a present for her, but it might be a little late; I'm hunting down a copy of A Ride on the Red Mare's Back to go with the Dala horse and the wooden knitting needles. Three might be a little early for the needles, but not for the story -- our kids need all the examples of resolute determination they can get, and they need 'em right now.

Love you, honey. (And I am insanely jealous about the pie!)

Yours, always,

Lucy
Dear Lucie,

I'm sending this from work (I love my stick drive!) because thrice-damned British Telecom staunchly maintains that the development does not exist, and so they will not come out to hook up the phone lines.
Tell me what you're doing for Thanksgiving. I want to hear about all of it; I can't get what I'd need for it here, but maybe we could take the thought for the deed, blow some rations and overeat, fall asleep in heaps all over the sitting room in front of the fire. Eat some pumpkin pie for me.

Love,

Lucy

(Author's note: Sadly, there's not enough time left in-game to go into detail as to the workings of the Campbell Midwives' Clinic, but they would be similar to the model of care used at the Oakwood Midwives' Clinic in south London.)
*with apologies to Ray Bradbury

How do you pack for an international move?


That's not a bad thought to keep in mind if you're not planning an international move, come to that.
Dear Lucie,

Minneapolis was much calmer than I feared it would be.


Really must sleep now; I'm waxing adolescent. I'll text you when we get through Passport Control at Cardiff; Scott's got his new SIMM card, so it'll be his ID, but I'll say something suitably rude so you'll know it's me.

Love, always,

Lucy
Dear Lucie,

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

We tried, Luce. I know you're furious with me and you don't want to believe it now, but we really did try.

I'll call you once I'm in Minneapolis. I hope you'll answer the phone.

I love you.

Yours, no matter what,

Lucy

__________________________________________________


Dear Jayne,

Met the guy. He's polite enough, in that paternalistic way I've seen too much of lately, and if he really thinks he can move his whole ward over here from Sheffield -- it blows my mind when I meet people who really do think that changing countries is as easy as it looks in the movies: the world is much changed, but bureaucracy, like cockroaches, can survive anything. Happily, it's not my job to educate the yutz. I've introduced him and his wife to the neighbors and the best I can hope for is that he's kind to the house and doesn't make them want to murder them all in their sleep in six months' time.
I want to believe it's going to be all right. I have to believe we're all going to be all right.

Scott's telling me to send this and threatening to have sex with me until I pass out; I'm duly terrified (and hopeful that he didn't see me type that. Husbands are funny people, aren't they?). He's right, though, I should try to sleep. I'll call you once we're in Minneapolis: I've been told that the weekly flight to Cardiff is reliable, but I'll know more once we're there.

Kiss my kids for me.

Love,

Lucy
Dear Lucie,

Life is weird.

Last week I got a phone call from my friend the realtor. "Were you still thinking of moving? I have someone interested in a house in Salt Lake."

Dear Lucie,

Lucie, not everything is perfect here. I'm sorry if my letters upset you.


Kinda sums up the mood of late, doesn't it?

Love, always,

Lucy
Salt Lake City's police cars, fire trucks, snowplows and other vehicles are a hungry lot when it comes to fuel. But even in the face of rising gas prices, Fleet Manager Lamont Nelson says next year's fuel budget isn't rising:

"We're running more hybrids now. We're eliminating all SUVs as they come to replacement - replacing them with smaller, more fuel-efficient cars," says Nelson. "So, we are seeing a savings in that area."

Nelson says a new policy that restricts personal use of police cars is also reducing fuel usage. About 60-percent of the city's fleet currently runs on biodiesel.

Full article here.

Utah is the newest - and by far the most Republican - state to join a growing coalition tackling climate change in the West. Governor Jon Huntsman Junior signed a promise to begin reducing green house gas emissions in Utah, flanked by the initiative's leader, California Governor Arnold Schwarzenegger. [...]

Schwarzenegger sees Utah's participation in the Climate Action Initiative as a hopeful sign that other Western states with a high dependence on coal will soon join the effort. Aside from creating state policies to reduce emissions, he says the goal is also to send a message to the Bush Administration and Congress that if they won't lead on the issue they should at least "get out of the way."

Full article here.

Tracy Aviary has gone solar with a $50,000 grant from Rocky Mountain Power's Blue Sky Program. Spokesman Jeff Hymas says the 30 photovoltaic solar panels installed on the aviary's Lory Building should generate about 9,500 kilowatt hours of renewable energy annually:

"That's enough to offset about 9.5 tons of carbon dioxide emissions each year, and it has the same environmental benefit as not driving more than 20,300 miles and planting about 3.7 acres of trees."

Full article here.

Dear Lucie,

Well, Mayor Rocky was already on Washington's shit list: I'm not really surprised to learn that he was part of the delegation that made the trip to DC and issued the smackdown. I'd have paid in gold to watch that, but this was coming even before the crisis; when the students at BYU stage an alternative commencement to protest the actions of the current administration? Throw in your hand and go home, guys: you're done. I'm not much for TV, but I'll switch the box on for the impeachment proceedings, you betcha! Never mind the radio: I want to see their faces.
We're taking TRAX up to Movie Night at the Gallivan Center; it was so popular this summer that they've decided to keep it going until it gets too cold. They're showing The Italian Job; the remake, sadly, but it's an excuse for a picnic downtown -- which means I'd better put something together and find my sandals. Now that it's cooling down again, the electrical demand is dropping like a stone: let's try the webcams this week if things are stable enough on your end. I miss the sound of your voice.

Love, always,

Lucy

(Author's note: Mayor Ross C. "Rocky" Anderson has been a vocal and eloquent opponent of the invasion of Iraq and the subsequent actions of the Bush Administration since its beginnings: the speech linked to above was delivered at a public demonstration in Salt Lake City, Utah on March 19, 2007, the fourth anniversary of the invasion. In a World Without Oil, it is my opinion -- based on this and his passionate advocacy for sustainable living -- that he would be an equally forceful participant in any action taken on a state or municipal level to rein in that administration's excesses.)

* While the situation is fictional, the quote by "David" is real: in the course of my father's building a treehouse for my then nine-year-old son, I was greeted by this happy cry after being allowed to sleep late; needless to say, until an explanation and the judicious administration of caffeine were forthcoming, it was a surreal start to the day . . . .
This is Scott, posting for Lucy: she's in the hospital at present.

She was out in the garden and collapsed from heatstroke. It's kind of funny: she's been hollering at half the neighborhood about staying indoors between 11 and 2, drinking a lot, wearing hats, how to make up oral rehydration fluid for the older folks and kids . . . and now she's down for the count herself.

I've talked with the ER physician and her regular doctor, and she's going to be fine -- but both have said flat out that the climate here is taking its toll on her.

"She'll swear," I told Dr. Jackson. "You know she will. She'll say that she isn't a weakling."

"No one's disputing that. But she does have albinism, diagnosed very late in her life: even though she's been careful, the sunburns she had as a child have had a more serious effect on her than they would anyone who didn't have the disorder. We have an insanely high rate of skin cancers here among the average population; someone like Lucy is at considerable risk, and . . . ."

"And what?"

"And it's no kind of life for her, stuck inside most of the time. She's doing her best to be careful, but it isn't enough, not really. You should seriously talk about relocation."

"The inversions in the valley aren't doing her asthma any good, either. Fire season in the summer, and more people will probably be going back to wood stoves in the winter -- "

"I am seeing more refills being fulfilled on her inhalers as well as David's. I know it's asking a lot to uproot your family, but I can't guarantee a medical solution will be available indefinitely."

It's a lot to take in. She doesn't look sick, you know? She'd say she damned well isn't sick -- but she is limited, and I think she's really starting to feel it. I don't want that for her.

But how do I get her out? If Minneapolis were stable, we could get a flight from there to Cardiff and get the train from there to our friends in Buckinghamshire: I've been told that Heathrow is a no-go area, and Stansted and Gatwick aren't much better, but Amsterdam is still handling traffic in. a fairly straightforward way. It's two changes, then at least a three-hour train trip to Wycombe . . .

The nurse says I can go in and talk to her; she can probably go home in another hour.

Then?

We'll see.
Lucie,

Okay, lookit, wench, for the last time: I AM NOT LAUGHING AT YOU.
This has gotten hideously long, so I'm going to go: David's headed out for a walk before work, and I think I'll join him. If you have any problems with the cup, get on AIM and I'll talk you through it: there's a little bit of a learning curve, but you can do this. And you won't be caught without again, which is a very nice feeling.

Love you,

Lucy
We've just heard about this on the radio.

I don't want to believe it.

David's friend Mike joined the Army today: Before, they offered discounts on Harleys to the guys; now it's access to gas. He said the recruiters were friendly to him, but a LOT more aggressive in encouraging him to enlist. He was starting to look for a way to get out of the conversation when one of them spotted his Medic-Alert sports band, asked about it casually, and a few minutes later shook his hand and wished him good luck in the future.

I think they took his name (Mike introduced him to the recruiters), accessed the Medic-Alert database and pulled up his medical records. Never mind all the ways in which this violates HIPPA; if they're prescreening the people they're coming in contact with against the medical conditions that lead to automatic disqualification -- David is asthmatic and on daily medication to manage it; he carries an albuterol inhaler at all times --

Does anyone else think we could be looking at the reintroduction of the draft, and a fast-track from induction to deployment?

Scott is on Skype with Mark and Jayne right now; my qualifications have been accepted by the Nursing and Midwifery Council and as it's a shortage occupation, I qualify for a Tier 1 work visa: Scott can take any job he likes without Mark having to go through the annoyance of applying for a permit, and after 5 years we can apply for permanent residency. If I apply, I should have an answer by e-mail in a few days.

It's starting to feel as if we need to jump before we're pushed . . . .
Dear Lucie,

It was only a matter of time; we both knew that. Tell Jack that I thank him for his sympathetic outrage -- how's the dispatch job going?

It was very -- quiet, when it happened. Post is down to one day a week, but the government can always get things through, can't they? It was a very short, succinct letter from the Department of Occupational and Professional Licensing that said that "after due consideration and review of Health Department data on neonatal and maternal outcomes, the Licensed Direct-Entry Midwifery Program will not be renewed. Current Utah license holders may continue to attend clients until the expiration date of September 30 of this year, but they are strongly encouraged to shift their clients to their supporting OB/GYNs and/or those hospitals where they currently hold admitting privileges."

(Funny, how the link on the page to the Health Department statistics is only working intermittently . . . if I were a suspicious woman, I could make all kinds of statements about why that might be. Thanks be to the Internet and caching, here's a copy of the last report.)

As you'd expect, the community (all 11 of us!) exploded. Madelyn turned in her license, packed up the kids and headed for Oregon (I've already had a call from Mary begging us to come to Tillamook); more than half -- particularly the Fundamentalist LDS midwives, who weren't thrilled at the idea of state licensure in the first place for reasons I leave as an exercise for the student -- have said flat out that they won't stop attending births after the end of September. State Representatives have been contacted, and there's some talk of gearing up to start the battle all over again in the next Legislative Session, but it sounds dispirited -- no one's really up to the fight.

The head of the community council has been very sympathetic, and asked if I would consider upgrading my EMT license to Paramedic class and offering first aid and community disaster response classes. It's a necessary skill set to develop in the community, and I'd be happy to do it if nothing else works out, but it's not what I want.

Jayne has sent me the necessary paperwork from the Nursing and Midwifery Council for applying to register my qualification in the UK: as I have a Bachelor's and my program was MEAC-accredited (and I've kept up my Continuing Education hours!), it should be pretty straightforward -- I'd have to do the "Adaptation to Midwifery" program, but that's required for everyone who wasn't trained in the UK or EU . . . and I have to take the IELTS to prove that I can speak English. Scott's got multiple jobs on offer; Emily holds Irish citizenship through her mother and could bring David over if they marry (and they were heading that way before all of this started). So --

Gods damn it, Lucie. What do I do now?

Love,

Lucy

(Author's note: I am not a LDEM in real life, but I did go through a year of exhaustive training at the Midwives' College of Utah: the current president was the doula who held my hand when my son was born at a free-standing birth center -- now sadly lost! -- nearly 20 years ago. Happily, there is no sign that the RL Utah Direct-Entry Midwifery program is in any danger.)
Dear Lucie,

I was so happy to receive your package! We're down to three days per week, but the post is still getting through: the friendship ball travels again! I love the scarf! Your grammie had excellent taste; I'll wear it as soon as the weather turns cold again.

Which isn't likely to happen for months, damn it.

We've lost a lot -- but we're still here.

By the way, e-mail still works, you silly cow. Send me some.

Love, always,

Lucy

(Author's note: I do have the genetic condition referred to in the post; living in a state with 300 sunny days a year and 20% more UV radiation than at sea level presents a number of challenges for people with albinism -- and Lucy is going to find it more and more difficult to accommodate some of those challenges as the weeks pass . . . .)

Lucie is my dear friend. She's married to a very silly man named Jack, and has a daughter who is universally adored among our friends. She used to live in San Francisco; six weeks ago, her grandmother died, and while attending the funeral she lost her job: her employer had overextended himself, two proposed contracts fell through, and he had to cut his losses. She had unemployment, and health insurance through the end of last month, but they'd already been struggling to meet their bills.

So she and Jack talked to each other, and to their friends, and read the cards, and came to the conclusion that it was time to move back to Wisconsin. Their friends in California screamed with one voice: “You're making a mistake! You're not going to find a decent job there!” When Lucie asked my opinion, I said “You love your family; you'd have backup, and you want our Ellie to grow up knowing her grandparents. Get your ass out of there.”

That was six weeks ago.

I'm glad she got out when she could.

Will we be able to, if it comes to that?


 

Dear Lucie,

The delivery from the dairy has changed again: the 10 pounds of potatoes and 5 of apples were there, but in burlap sacks rather than the usual plastic – and there's a charge against the account if the bags and all of the milk bottles aren't returned. I had enough glass bottles from the thrift store to empty them out, David put the potatoes in a sealed container full of clean play sand in the cold storage (something you might think about: they're far less likely to sprout that way), and we stuck the empties back into the new lockable steel cooler on the front porch – the cooler is bolted to the porch joists, out of sight of the sidewalk. The pickings at the thrift stores are getting slim: I used to be able to buy armfuls of big wire-bail jars -- and canning jars by the case -- for only a few dollars. Now there are none on the shelves and people watch the new donations being brought out with fretful looks on their faces.

 

Write soon and let me know how things are with you; I've missed chatting with you every day, though I know that you both need to find work right away. Is Ellie settling in all right? Is your mother insufferably happy? Don't worry about sending the friendship ball back right away: wait until you feel a bit more centered. I think we're all going to be learning a lot more about patience as this goes on, so I might just as well start practising now.

Love, always,

Lucy 

From today's Salt Lake Tribune:

WOODS CROSS - A furnace explosion sent flames shooting through a Woods Cross refinery Sunday night.
    Crude oil caught fire inside a furnace, causing the blaze at the Silver Eagle Refinery, 2355 S. 1100 West, around 7:45 p.m., said South Davis Metro Fire Deputy Chief Jim Rampton.
    No one was injured and few workers were at the refinery Sunday night, Rampton said.
    Firefighters contained the blaze within 15 minutes and had it extinguished 30 minutes later as refinery workers shut off oil valves, Rampton said.
    Rampton called the blaze "impressive," saying it engulfed the furnace, which is about 20 feet tall and 10 feet wide. The furnace is used to heat crude oil to extract petroleum and other derivatives.
    No homes were threatened by the flames, but the fire closed 1100 West in the immediate vicinity of the refinery.
    A 2005 blaze occurred at the Silver Eagle Refinery after a diesel line erupted inside a furnace. No one was injured in that fire.

(Author's note: this event is being used for fictional purposes in the interactive World Without Oil community; link to the original story here.)